Memories are sometimes like getting hit with a car... they come out of no where

Well, it's true. Somethings from the past do just come out of no where, just like getting hit by a car (or hitting another car as the case may be for me!) I was clearing some old files off my computer today, and came across a few things that I didn't recognize, some old emails that I never sent and some old AIM conversations that I saved for only god knows what reason. And of course, because I'm extremely curious and ridiculously sentimental, I chose to read all of it. Some of the stuff made me smile, but most of it made me cry. Remembering the facts of why those conversations went down, and remembering how I felt while it was happening, why any of it ever had to happen. And as I was just sitting here at my computer, tears just started to spill over, and I couldn't make them stop. Nor did I want to. It felt good to cry, and lately that's all I've wanted to do really, just cry and get that feeling away from me, indulge and release it. But even though I cried, over remembering things that happened months and months ago, even years ago, I didn't erase those files. They reminded me what I went through, and that I don't ever want to go through that again, or ever let myself get that vulnerable. But I also realized that those things are still affecting me, from my friendships to the way I look at myself. And as much as I want to just erase all of that, get rid of it so that everytime I read one of those files i don't cry, I can't. I know that I can't get rid of those files, but I don't know why I can't. Maybe its because I believe that reopening old wounds is good for the soul, or maybe I'm full of shit, which is way more likely. But I'm keeping them reguardless.

"Hasn't Happened for the Longest Time"

"Hasn't Happened for the Longest Time" is a song by Billy Joel, and one that until this weekend, had not heard in close to 10 years. I was driving around town this past weekend, and I heard this song on the radio twice. And as soon as I heard it, I took me back to the summer I was probably 13. And I just started having all these crazy memories come back to me, things I hadn't thought about in eleven years... isn't that crazy? It took me back to my first crush, and not the things that made him an ass, but the good things. Took me back to me and my three friends that I grew up with, all on this one trip together, hanging out.

It's funny how little things like a song can bring back memories that have been hidden for years and years. That one song makes me smile big, and remember being in East Tennessee in August, camping and kayaking, hiking, all those funny campy things that kids do, or at least did when i was young (I sound so OLD!). Just thought that was funny.

Funny Card and Shawn Pic's

So I saw this card in the grocery store yesterday, and thought is was pretty entertaining, and very true. But in my case, it should read "Things I've Learned From My Daughter: Never 'come smell this'". At SMUT this year, I was giving my dad a hard time, and when they were about to leave I took off my visor and said "Hey Dad, come smell this." Here's the thing. I have not washed that visor in the four year's that I've been playing ultimate, nor did I wash it before that. So basically I've never washed it, and I've worn it as my ultimate hat for the better part of four years. SO, what does my dad do, but smell my hat, which i thought was pretty funny after the face he made, and that he was that gulible, and all my friends found pretty gross. This card just spoke to me.

Shawn Adams: Also this past weekend, and it was great. I played great (and we all know that if I actually feel this way after the tournament, I must have played pretty well), threw lots of hucks and scores, most of them completed, and had a great time at the party. We (Strike) lost in finals to Ozone, Rival beat IP in mixed finals, and the Wilmington Warriors beat Rumble Fish in open finals. There was someone from UT playing in both the women's and the men's finals. It was a great weekend, party was interesting... here are some of the photo's, along with some from Savannah Toss in the Moss and Atlanta EOS.

Stupid Stick

So, the last two weeks have been a little crazy for me. First, I got the job at Haygood Preschool, which I am super excited about. I'll be working with 2yr olds two days a week and 3yr olds three days a week, from 8:30-12:30. Since that leaves me lots of extra time, I thought about getting another job, but instead I am going to be taking the GRE on October 20. awesome right? NO. It only gives me seven weeks to study, which I have found out is not enough time! Which brings me to the title of this post. In the last five days I have started studying for the GRE. I have gone through 14 of 50 word lists, and tried, TRIED to start on the math review. Yeah, that didn't go so well. I have literally already started to stress about this, because I feel like someone has beat me over and over again with a "stupid stick", because I have no idea how to do basic algebra and geometry anymore. I couldn't remember how to find the area of a triangle today. between that, sitting in hours of traffic over the last two days, and starting my new job tuesday, I feel like i can't do anything right. I haven't been able to follow a single conversation over the last two days. So what am i going to do about it? Play ultimate, and drink massive amounts of alcohol this weekend. Everyone I know says that's how to cure stress, right? Hopefully the stupid stick beating will wear off soon...

NEW JOB

I did it. I got a job. A real job. I got a job working as an assistant teacher at a local preschool!!! I'm so super excited! It is only three miles from my house, it's close to Grady so that I can keep running track and I can help Susie with her high school Ultimate team, and it's a job teaching! YEAH!!!!!!

I believe... updated

So, when I was 16 I wrote something that I called "I Believe". It's just all the things that I believed in at that point, just takes on life. Six years later, almost to the day, these points still hold true, with a few things added to the end. It's funny how at 16 so many of my basic superstitutions, beliefs, whatever, were already part of me, when I hadn't really even been outside my "perfect" Cordova, suburbia USA world. Yet now, when I've finished high school, graduated from college, moved to a city where nothing was framiliar, these things still mean something. I've had my heart broken many , many times over the last six years, and I've been let down by friends more times than i can count. But despite all of that, I've kept cynicsm at arms length (with a few slips here and there), and these are still my basic beliefs on human nature. So here it is. "I Believe"...

I Believe.
I believe in God. I believe that life is a journey, with an ultimate destination. I believe in heaven and hell. I believe in predestination, and that we all determine our fate. I believe in faith. I believe that sometimes good things can come from bad situations and experiences. I believe in love at first sight. I believe that for every person on this earth, God made the perfect man/woman for us. Our soul mate. When we are born, we start our search for our soul mates. The lucky one's find their soul mates. I believe in life long friendships, and old ones that can be rekindled. I believe that new friendships are just as important as old ones. I believe that people don't have to change friends, if they understand that friends change. I believe in living life to the fullest. Life is an adventure. I believe that the happiest people are the one's that don't let life pass them and leave them behind. They don't let opportunities go without a second look. I believe in trying new things, and going out of your comfort zone. I believe in testing your personal limits, physically, and spiritually. I believe that material things WILL NOT MAKE YOU HAPPY, no matter what your friends and the rest of the world tell you. I believe in doing what you love and loving what you do. I believe that we all need to be true to ourselves. I believe that beauty is on the inside as well as the outside. You might have to dig a little more with some people than you will with others. You have to find the inner beauty and take the time to appreciate it. I believe that if a person is unhappy, they are doing something wrong in their life. Change something, fix something, make yourself happy. I believe that happiness comes from within. I believe that sometimes bad things do happen to good people, and the other way around. I believe in luck, and anything that has to do with luck. Every little bit helps. I believe in late night talks with strangers, and not having to talk at all with a life long friend, you know each other that well, and verbal communication isn't needed. I believe family is the most important possession a person can have, even if you aren't blood related. I believe that friends are the next most important possession a person can have, because they are the ones who see you through the hard times and the good times. I believe that a person’s life can be changed in a matter of seconds, or it can take a lifetime. I believe that God can descend on a place and everyone can feel His spirit, and all who felt it leave different than when they entered. What do you believe?

updated 8/14/2006:
I believe that sometimes you will get let down and your heart will get broken, over and over again. That the people that you want to be there won't be, and the people you never expected to be will. True friends are the ones that love you, quirks and all, no matter how crazy or clinically insane you may be at times. Every girl needs friends that are guys and can act like her brother's. And most importantly, one must realize that there are some things that you can never change, and some things that you have no control over. The only thing that you can do is let those things be as they are, and move on with life. Something better is always around the corner.

Pandora.com

So, Jen Milholen told me about this site. It's pandora.com, and it is like an online radio taylored to your music tastes. It asks you to type in an artist or a song, and then it will pick out songs and artists that are like the original that you liked. It saves these as radio stations, and you can log on whenever and just listen to continual music from that category. And the best part: IT'S FREE. Check it out.

Poultry Days 2006

How can one ever describe Poultry Days (PD) to someone that has never experienced it? I'm not real sure, but I'm going to do my best here. PD is by far one of my favorite tournaments every year. It is set in this little town in Southwest Ohio, Versailles (not pronounced like the one in France, pronounced like it looks), every June. I LOVE this tournament. So, Friday, Scott, Susie, Joe and I get on the road around 3:00pm, not too late, and we get there around 12:30. It is a nice night, and many of our friends are already there. We head over the the Nooga area, since that is where I always camp, and to my surprise and utter disbelief, almost everyone over there was already asleep!!! It's been four days now, and I'm still in shock! Anyway, once I get over that, and say hey to the few ppl that were still awake, Susie and I decide to find the bathroom and let the boys set up the tent (yes I know how to set one up, but why do that when you can get boys to do it for you? :)) So that gets done, and then I end up setting up Ray Dav's tent for him, because I'm the most amazing friend ever, and then I somehow end up losing my car buddies! I find Joyner coming over the hill, and we find Erin, who then proceeds to go exploring with me to find Rival ppl. We end up over at Savannah and IP's site, Erin heads to bed, and I find McCargo. Who has Jolly Rancher Shots. Watermelon flavored Jolly Rancher Shots. I have no idea what is in these things, but I've heard that they are amazing, so I run up to McCargo, and he has them in a container with a pour spout. So, place mouth under, pour, and enjoy, which I did immensely. I enjoyed them so much that I proceeded to partake of 7 of them between 2:15am and 2:45am. It was fabulous. Finally found Susie and Joe, and then Scott showed up, and decided that he wanted to take down McCargo's tent, while he was still in it. So, Jenn (bobbies) led the way, Joe, Janet, and Scott helped her, and Amy Sallie, Susie and I watched and laughed from the path... very funny. I then decided that it would be a good idea to get in bed before more than four of those shots set in.
Woke up Saturday morning, and it was raining. And I was wet. Our tent had leaked, and anyone that knows me knows that I get cranky when and camp and it rains and my tent leaks. Oh yeah... and the temp was hovering somewhere around 60 degrees. Maybe. So, I bite the bullet and get out of the tent. We end up losing every single game that day, by at least five points. It was not fun. All of my fun was had while hanging out. After play was over, went and showered and grabbed food, then started drinking. Apparently I wasn't drinking fast enough, because every time Scott would look at me, I got yelled at for not drinking. We watched the all star game, which was kinda boring, and then headed to the fair for a little bingo (YEAH!!!) I love bingo. We ended up picking up Janet at the all star game, and she was with us the rest of the night. I think I ended up going to bed sometime around 2:30ish... all this equals a good Saturday night at PD.
Woke up Sunday morning, yelled at Erin because she wouldn't leave me the hell alone, and told Tom that I wasn't playing, mostly because I didn't want to. We broke down camp, then headed over the the fields since Joe and Susie wanted to play anyway. We finally headed back to ATL around 12:30, stopped for lunch in Lexington, gas in K-town, and made it back by 10:00pm. It was a great weekend, and despite the weather, I'm sure that I'll go back again and make that ridiculous drive again. I mean seriously, it's Poultry Days.
Pictures here.

Hate

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about the word "hate" and what it really means. Dictionary.com defines the word in many ways, but the most basic definition is "To feel hostility or animosity toward, to detest". This is a word that I did not like to use when I was growing up, because I honestly thought that I shouldn't hate people, and at that time I didn't feel that strongly about anyone. Hate is a very strong word, and I always said "I don't hate (insert name here) I just strongly dislike them." Well, in the last couple of months, I've finally come to realize what the word hate really means, and what it feels like. I've been preoccupied with this feeling towards someone so much, that it makes me into a person that people don't really like. I've started acting different towards my friends, and taking this anger out on them, my true friends that mean something to me. But I don't know how to make these feelings stop. How do you stop hating someone when they have hurt you to your very core? I've tried cutting this person out of my life, but I can't do it completely, because they are tied to other people that I truely care about, people that I can't cut out.
Then there are the people that I care about, but that hurt me without ever knowing it, and I can't cut them out either. It's one of those situations where it hurts to have them be a part of my life because they unconsiously hurt me, but it hurts too much to cut them out and not have them around. It feels like I've lost a friend, who doesn't want me in his/her life anymore, but I can't just let them go.
It's a vicious, downward spiraling cycle that I can't seem to get out of. I try, but I can't stop being angry. I've become bitter, angry, and much more cynical in the last two or three months, but I try not to show that to people, because no one wants to be around someone like that. So all I do is continue to lock my feelings up inside, and build a thicker wall around my heart and my feelings, because all I've learned is that it's hard to trust people, because you never know who people really are, or whether they will only end up hurting you in the end.

The Dreaded "I told you so"

So, I just got back from a little visit to Knoxville yesterday, which was partly school related and partly play visit. I loved being back, loved seeing people and realized that even though I'm glad that I don't still currently live in Knoxville, I do miss it and appreciate it more now than I did before. I got to hang out with my brother (note to self: NEVER stay in a house with 3-6 college guys... so GROSS!!!) which was fun since we aren't really phone siblings, and I ended up staying up super late on Monday night with all the boys just hanging out and playing foosball. I got up on Tuesday morning and walked across campus to the Bursars office... which had been moved to a building that i passed on the way to the old location... a location that is literally four blocks from where i was staying. BOOO! Got all my stuff from there, and then realized that I'm going to have to take the praxis... not happy about that. Went home, took a nap (i forgot how wonderful they are!), then met Tom for Happy Hour. And that was the first time of the the trip that I got the "I told you so" when i said that i was going back to school. I also got it later that night when i met up with Mat Heard and Denmark and Tom. Matt didn'te even have to say anything, I saw it in the look on his face that it was coming. "I don't even want to hear it" and he just started laughing at me. I also got the look from my other friend Matt Frease yesterday at lunch. I told him that the reason we didn't hang out until yesterday was because I couldn't handle anymore smartass comments or looks from anyone in one day after tuesday. It was funny, but ya know, maybe i should have stayed in school and just gotten my masters and everything in one long trip. But it was definatly time to leave knoxville last december, and i don't regret having to start over in a way. I know that I definatly want to teach now, where as before i was totally confused as to what the hell i was thinking and wanting. Sometime you have to fail to figure out what you really want, and to make you want it enough. Still though, I really think that phrase is over used!
Other things that happend is that i talked with Erin and Heather and Meredith and Claire... I miss my ultimate girls so much, and I miss playing with them more than I even knew! We all had this great connection... maybe sometime in the future! I also think that I've finally gotten to the point that the things that I can't control I've stoped caring about, or worrying about. If I can't change them, there is no reason to get upset about them. I've also learned who is important to me, and why... those are things i don't think that i knew before I moved here. But i know who is there for me, and who loves me enough to yell at my friends that are being stupid and mean to me (Sam!). And I now know that there are somethings that will never end a friendship, and that sometimes I don't know someone the way I thought that I did. Ok, enough of my life lessons.. :)

updates...

So much time between posts... well that's what happens when all of a sudden outside internet acess is taken away at work!
So not too much has happened in the last couple of months. One major thing is that I don't have a job anymore. I quit, and last thursday was my last day. That place was aweful, and i've been able to save some money, so i'm currently "exploring my options" (it is all in how you word things). So now, I'm in knoxville for a couple of days getting some copies of my transcript so that when i meet with some grad programs in ATL i'll have something to show them. My hope is that one of them has an opening in the fall, that i can afford it, and that i can get some funding. If that happens, I'm hoping to get a job nannying for the summer so that i can still play as much ultimate as possible this summer! Speaking of ultimate, I also went to a tournament with Rival a couple of weeks ago, to a small coed only in Savannah. I never thought i would play with rival, but i had a lot of fun, even though i didn't play as well as i would have liked. Of course, my standards for myself are a little higher than most people's are for me, but still. I didn't do anything spectaculare, but i'm also not one of those kinds of players. I haven't heard back from either of the captains on how they think i played, but we'll see how it goes I guess. I would like to play with them this fall.
There really hasn't been too much going on... already making plans for summer tournaments, and making plans for poultry Days, which is going to be great, and lacey and sarah and ashely are coming to visit sometime in may, so that'll be fun. I guess that's all for now!

a fun weekend.... with no drama!!!

So, this past weekend was one of the best I've had in a while... probably since I moved here. Started out on Saturday and I had to work, which SUCKED, but got off work and sped to the fields for women's league EOST (End Of Season Tournament)... great fun. Got there for the second half of my teams second game. I got to play quite a bit because we only had nine once I got there. Of course, did I warm up or stretch? No. Anyway... had a great time during that game. Had a bye after that and got to eat Moe's, who catered, and hung out with Samantha, Joyner, Janet and Abby. Janet and I talked lots and LOTS of ultimate and just kinda caught up. Then my team had to play Joyner's team to go to the finals... and I ended up gaurding Jenn most of the time. She was slightly injured (which you better be ok!!) but it was still a lot of fun. We won, and then had to play Samantha's team in the finals. The whole time during the finals I'm thinking "What time is it? I'm supposed to leave for Auburn soon!!!". Besides that, I had a great game. Definatly turned it over a couple of times, but did pretty well over all on offense, and kept up on defense... i really think my track workouts are helping (but I still hate Scott). Anyway, my highlight (at least to myself) was when Chris O'Cleary was gaurding me. Now this woman is the captain of Strike, is tall with long arms and legs, so not the easiest person for short and slow me to have to play against. Somehow I get the disc off a cut from the stack, look downfield and Karen Johnson is running deep (another strike player, on my team). I don't even think, I just send on the my most beautiful flick hucks flying. AND IT WORKS. Karen catches it in the endzone for a score. I got a flick huck off on Chris O'Cleary! I was excited (and still am). I couldn't believe it. She's just such a good player and I've heard so much about her...yeah! Anyway, we didn't end up winning, but it was a fun game, and hopefully she'll remember who I am when i try out for strike this summer (hopefully).
After EOS was over, I sped to Auburn, and got there around 6:45, but it took me a little while to find Annie's house. I showered, and we met the girls at Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner, went and got Robert, and headed over to Wes's for some beer pong and general alcohol consumption. It was fun. I love the auburn girls, they are so fun and just down to earth and sweet. I ended up playing beer pong with Justin, which I suck at, but it was fun. There was no drunk dialing because i gave my phone to Robert and told him to not give it back to me... there is no telling who I would have called and what questions I might have asked in the state I was in. But it was a good time. Finally went to bed around 2:30 (3:30 my time) and instantly fell into a drunken sleep. Woke up around 11:30 and met Ray Ray for lunch, which was fun. I needed to sit and just talk and have some Caroloopy and Ray time... which just means that I tell him we aren't going to be friends anymore about a billion times!!!(kidding). Finally headed home around 1:30, and came back and just lounged here. It was a great weekend, continued my tradition of getting wasted every damn time I'm in Alabama, and had a drama-less weekend. Overall... one of the best in a while!

Adjusting

I sometimes wonder if I am adjusting at all to living here in Atlanta. I've been here for two months now, and so far I hate my job, have a very limited number of friends, and haven't been playing nearly as much ultimate as I should be. I have a social life that that revolves around exercising once a week during track practices, and going to tournaments. Again except for the handful of friends that I had before I moved here, I have not met anyone new, nor do I ever go out. All of this makes me wonder if I made the right decision at all to move to Atlanta. But what other choices did I really have? I could have stayed in Knoxville. But if I really liked it there then I wouldn't have been out of town every weekend for the last six months I was there. And I do miss people there, and the just easy hanging out, but I didn't feel like I belonged there anymore. I also could have moved home (gasp! horror!) to Dyersburg. (Where? EXACTLY.) That one was out. Or I could have moved back to Memphis, my real home. Yes, I could have lived in MY house for free while Mom and Dad are trying to sell it, I probably even could have worked at the Gap there close to full time if I really wanted. But I don't really belong in Memphis anymore either. As much as I love Memphis (even though I say that I hate it) I don't belong there. Except for Katie (and Mandy whom I haven't seen since highshcool) I don't have any friends there either. Despite all of those choices being the wrong ones, I don't know if this one was the right one either.

At the begining of my freshman year of college I felt like this alot. I had just gone through sorority rush (no comments, please) and had been rejected from all of them. All of my suite mates and every fricking girl on my floor was in a sorority. And that was fine, but I just didn't fell like I belonged. It was really hard, and I contemplated moving back home. I was really sad and desprate. And eventually I started playing ultimate, and things got much better, I know that I wouldn't have made it through those terrible couple of weeks if it hadn't been for Lacey. In the sixteen years we've known each other, this is the first time we haven't lived in the same city... or even a couple of miles from each other. During college, I knew that I could always depend on her when things got rough, even though we didn't really hang out that often.

Now, I don't even have Lacey here to lean on. I have Samantha and Teddy and Susie, and a few other people, but it's not the same as the person that has known you since you were five. I'm just feeling a little insecure lately... sorry for this pitty party. I'm just trying to figure out if any of the decisions have been the right ones, or if all of this was just too soon for me, or just wrong completely. Hopefully things will start to look up soon...

Alabama and Alcohol

So, I've discovered that there is some connection with the amount of alcohol I consume and the state of Alabama. I've been to four tournaments so far in 2006, three of them in Alabama, and I've gotten fairly drunk every Saturday night... actually every single time I've been in the state of Alabama in the last year I've gotten drunk and tried to make a fool of myself, usually succeeding. WTF?

Anyway, this past weekend was Mud Bowl at the Talladega Motor Speedway. And it was AWEFUL. The weather on Saturday morning was horrible-- temp hovering between 35-40 degrees, and raining. AND windy. It was by far some of the worst conditions that I've ever played in. So, I was playing with a team called Iron whORE (emphasis on the last syllable... like with a British accent), but I called us Iron WHORE... Whore game is my fav! We lost our first game to UTK ladies, which sucked, because I wanted to win so badly! Then we lost 13-0 to Savage Booty. We didn't have more than two completed passes in any single point! Then we had our bye, where Samantha and I decided to get food and booze. McDonalds has never tasted so good, nor has hot chocolate and kaluha. It was fabulous. We also picked up some High Life. So, we kinda drove around watching games from the car, hung out and watched the Auburn girls a little, saw Ray Ray and Justin. Good time during the bye. After the bye we played a pick up team, and barely won, then had to play the nooga/atl team. it was a fun game for me, even though they absolutely killed us. But I played well, and I got to play all the girls that I love. Went to the Hotel, showered, and got some dinner at O'Charley's with Sam, Teddy, Joe, Tom and Joyner. It was fantastic. Got back to the Hotel, and basically the party started. The tournament had rented out the WHOLE hotel for the weekend, so imagine sixty rooms of ultimate kids and lots of alcohol. Needless to say a good time was had by all. I proceeded to get drunk with the Auburn girls, saw Flo ladies and Buddy, and had a fabulous time. Finally hit the bed around 12:30. Got up, had a first round bye (this is the one time being in the B-bracket actually paid off!) and we lost our first game to Brutal Grassburn. We should have won, but oh well. The Auburn girls ended up beating Brutal to win the B-bracket. Ended up watching some more ultimate... Teddy's team was in the open finals and Auburn was in the College finals. Unfortunatly Auburn lost a hard fought game to LSU, but Teddy's team won. After that, I quickly said my goodbyes and we were out. Over all it was a great weekend, and got to see lots and lots of people that I don't get to see very often, which was awesome. So the only thing I need to work on is I need to stop going to Alabama and getting drunk! It usually doesn't turn out too well for me!

A day in the salon...

So, things have been a little crazy for me the last couple of weeks, and a tad bit emotional. So, yesterday i decided that i needed an afternoon for me, and i made an appointment at this hair salon close to my house. It was awesome, got a small massage, had my hair trimmed, and my eyebrows waxed (i hate tweesing!) And the the girl that was cutting my hair asked if I wanted to have ber blow it out straight. Um YES! take a look at what you can pay other people to do. Now i might have to spend the Hour and a half that this took myself because i LOVE it!

Pic's from Tuscaloosa

Ok, here are the pics from Tuscaloosa... there aren't that many of them. And my computer is super slow, so all you get is a link to facebook. Deal with it.

update and T-Town Throwdown...

So, things have been a little crazy, my work schedule has already changed, and I've been a little bit of everywhere lately (not surprising though!). But I'm starting to be more comfortable in ATL.
Now, the real reason for posting... T-town Throwdown, Tuscaloosa.
It was amazing!!!! I left ATL with Sam on friday night around 6:30, and since we got a HUGE craving for O'Charley's, we had an adventure Talledega. Oh, what an experience. We finally made it to Tuscaloosa and headed over to McCargos for a little pre-tourny drinking and Apples to Apples. Met Clawson at her house, and me and sam and Clawson stayed up until about 2 am talking. It was so great! Got up Saturday morning and made it to the fields and i immediatly started to become the social buttterfly that i can rarely be. Everyone was there... Auburn girls, Auburn boys, Bama boys, Gracyn, UTC ladies, it was so fun! And of course, because of this i was the last girl with UTK to get my cleats on, run my warm up lap, and stretch, so i got yelled at.

Our first game was against Auburn, and it was really fun. Annie has this killer inside out flick that she uses as her break flick, and i hate it. There wasn't anything that i could do about it!!! But UT won, 13-6. Next was CofC, and that was ridiculous... we played well, threw zone, and won 13-0!!! Next we had a bye, and i sort of just went around and socialized a bit with everyone that i knew. Game three: GA Tech. This was by far our hardest game of the day. We were back and forth all day, but we did pull it out in the end 8-5... i think. And Meredith and Erin each had a Callahan! It was amazing!!!! And McKenna got to come out and watch and she actually got to see me play really well. So that was really fun for me. Then we had to play UTC. This is rivalry that has been going on for a couple of years, and lately UTC has won against us. NOT THIS WEEKEND! We threw zone with a trap cup on them and they didn't know what to do. It was some of the most beautiful ultimate i've ever played or seen!!! we won 13-2 i believe. It was great! So, UT goes 4-0 for the first time ever! Then Erin and I played in the All Star game which was a little ridiculouse, but pretty fun! Headed to Clawson's for showers, and then to a late snack type dinner so that we wouldn't fall asleep before the party. Annie and Robert and Traci from Auburn joined us too. Finally headed to the party around nine, and hung out with the Auburn crowd, but only after stacey, Clawson and I had a red headed slut together. The party was great, and I drank quite a bit, probably the most i've ever had at a tourny. Danced and had a general good time. Got up late on sunday morning, and had to play vandy/nashville team. Took the game 13-1 i think. Then we had to play Birmingham club, and we won that one too, but only after almost falling apart, 13-5. Championship game: UTC vs UTK. Imagine that. So, we were a little over confident, and they wanted it, so it was a little close for me most of the game, but we pulled it out 13-8. IT WAS GREAT. We won the tourny, got an amazing trophy, and I ended up with blisters the size of my hand on both of my feet. But it was all worht it.

Highlights: Playing with Clawson... so amazing as a player, and so fun! TWO CALLAHANS- in a women's game.... HELL YEAH! Seeing everyone... It was so fun! The party was ridiculously fun. Playing with my UT and Knoxville girls... i forget how much fun it is, and how well all of us can really play together, becuase we do know eachother that well. And winning the tourny was pretty fun too!

Yeah! for finally having internet again...and an update

Yeah for finally having internet here at the current living establishment! My uncle finally got my internet hooked up, and after going about six months without, I'm having some issues not checking my email and facebook obsessively.

So, the ATL. Things are starting to look delightfully better, now that I've had a little more time to settle in. Last weekend Samantha, Teddy and I headed to B'ham for a one day hat tourny. It was super fun! My team ended up making to finals, losing by only two points... but it was still an absolute blast. I got to play with Potter, originally from B'ham, currently residing in panama city FL, and with Lee from Memphis. It was great, and a lot of fun. I also got to see Shotgun kids... Annie, Robert (Ro Ro), Stacey, McCargo and Gray. Lots of fun was had by all. I made it back at a fairly decent hour, and got to sleep in on Sunday which was FABULOUS! On Sunday didn't really do much except hang out here and watch TV, until I went to this Greek restaurant near my place for Susie's and KQ's birthdays. Lots and lots of fun. Hensly had to dance with the belly dancer on our table, and Susie and KQ also had to dance with the belly dancer. I got to hang out with Amy Smith and Jennie Yang for a while, and somehow got an invite to play at Seven Little Idiots this Sunday in Athens, so super excited about that. Also talked to Scott for a while, which was nice to see him, and hung out with Jenn Joyner and Edleman. It was so funny listening to everyone trying to work out some sort of running schedule, since apparently we all need a social gathering to help us run! So Jenn and I ended up running last night, and we ran for two miles! For some that isn't a lot, but for me that is pretty good! So, hopefully Jenn and I will be running maybe twice a week together, and then I'll have track workouts with others on Wednesdays! Thank Goodness for friends that also need to get into shape!

So the weekend was great, and the rest of this week is looking better... Tomorrow is Wednesday-which means only three more days of work before the weekend, then pickup tomorrow night. Running on Thursday with Jenn (hopefully), then women's league and Athens this weekend. I'm definitely living for the weekends at the moment!

Oh yeah... and a great picture of Shotgun after we won Shawn Adams back in August... I've been waiting for this picture for months!!!

Click Click BOOM

And another one from Shawn, proving once and for all that I do dance on speakers, yet no alcohol was involved... for those of you that missed the party, you'll just have to wait for next year... I only do this for Nooga!

The Never Ending Changes

So, how fast can things change in one month you may ask... if you only knew. Since December 17 I have graduated from college and moved out of knoxville and into my aunt and uncles in ATL. Spent about a week in memphis, then spent christmas in Dyersburg. the monday after christmas mom and dad started moving all of thier furniture from their bedroom to dyersburg, along with mom's school stuff and some of my stuff of be put in storage. Had the cordova crew over at the house that thursday for the last mcclure get together in cordova. It was really sad that we weren't going to be hosting anymore! Got back here late on friday night, and spent new years here with stacey even though nothing happened. Started work this past monday, and as of 6pm today i will have made it through my first week, barely. So yeah, things have changed just a bit! I live in ATL, my parent's live in dyersburg, and my brother is currently resideing in KNoxville. I had to say goodbye to far too many people before graduation, and and with some it was really hard. But i'm getting better, and i've started running again, which totally shows exactly how little i have going on in my life at the moment. So since nothing is really going my way, i've decided to focus on ultimate and start getting in shape for the season(which isn't for about 8 months!) but i need it. I'm out of shape! So, that is the update.