The Dreaded "I told you so"

So, I just got back from a little visit to Knoxville yesterday, which was partly school related and partly play visit. I loved being back, loved seeing people and realized that even though I'm glad that I don't still currently live in Knoxville, I do miss it and appreciate it more now than I did before. I got to hang out with my brother (note to self: NEVER stay in a house with 3-6 college guys... so GROSS!!!) which was fun since we aren't really phone siblings, and I ended up staying up super late on Monday night with all the boys just hanging out and playing foosball. I got up on Tuesday morning and walked across campus to the Bursars office... which had been moved to a building that i passed on the way to the old location... a location that is literally four blocks from where i was staying. BOOO! Got all my stuff from there, and then realized that I'm going to have to take the praxis... not happy about that. Went home, took a nap (i forgot how wonderful they are!), then met Tom for Happy Hour. And that was the first time of the the trip that I got the "I told you so" when i said that i was going back to school. I also got it later that night when i met up with Mat Heard and Denmark and Tom. Matt didn'te even have to say anything, I saw it in the look on his face that it was coming. "I don't even want to hear it" and he just started laughing at me. I also got the look from my other friend Matt Frease yesterday at lunch. I told him that the reason we didn't hang out until yesterday was because I couldn't handle anymore smartass comments or looks from anyone in one day after tuesday. It was funny, but ya know, maybe i should have stayed in school and just gotten my masters and everything in one long trip. But it was definatly time to leave knoxville last december, and i don't regret having to start over in a way. I know that I definatly want to teach now, where as before i was totally confused as to what the hell i was thinking and wanting. Sometime you have to fail to figure out what you really want, and to make you want it enough. Still though, I really think that phrase is over used!
Other things that happend is that i talked with Erin and Heather and Meredith and Claire... I miss my ultimate girls so much, and I miss playing with them more than I even knew! We all had this great connection... maybe sometime in the future! I also think that I've finally gotten to the point that the things that I can't control I've stoped caring about, or worrying about. If I can't change them, there is no reason to get upset about them. I've also learned who is important to me, and why... those are things i don't think that i knew before I moved here. But i know who is there for me, and who loves me enough to yell at my friends that are being stupid and mean to me (Sam!). And I now know that there are somethings that will never end a friendship, and that sometimes I don't know someone the way I thought that I did. Ok, enough of my life lessons.. :)

updates...

So much time between posts... well that's what happens when all of a sudden outside internet acess is taken away at work!
So not too much has happened in the last couple of months. One major thing is that I don't have a job anymore. I quit, and last thursday was my last day. That place was aweful, and i've been able to save some money, so i'm currently "exploring my options" (it is all in how you word things). So now, I'm in knoxville for a couple of days getting some copies of my transcript so that when i meet with some grad programs in ATL i'll have something to show them. My hope is that one of them has an opening in the fall, that i can afford it, and that i can get some funding. If that happens, I'm hoping to get a job nannying for the summer so that i can still play as much ultimate as possible this summer! Speaking of ultimate, I also went to a tournament with Rival a couple of weeks ago, to a small coed only in Savannah. I never thought i would play with rival, but i had a lot of fun, even though i didn't play as well as i would have liked. Of course, my standards for myself are a little higher than most people's are for me, but still. I didn't do anything spectaculare, but i'm also not one of those kinds of players. I haven't heard back from either of the captains on how they think i played, but we'll see how it goes I guess. I would like to play with them this fall.
There really hasn't been too much going on... already making plans for summer tournaments, and making plans for poultry Days, which is going to be great, and lacey and sarah and ashely are coming to visit sometime in may, so that'll be fun. I guess that's all for now!