My thanksgiving week was actually a whole nine days long. and it was amazing. I went to huntsville the first weekend to hang out with my ultimate friends and watch everyone else play ultimate... starting to be my least favorite thing to do EVER. I then headed home by way of small town Alabama, Mississippi, and Tennessee, never once setting a foot (or a tire as the case may be) on an interstate from the time we got to Chattanooga saturday morning, from huntsville to my parents house, and then my parents house to about 30miles north of Birmingham the following weekend. it was FANTASTIC. While at home, I procrastinated on all of my school work (that is now coming back to bite me in the ass), went to the eye doctor, went to the dentist- where i had to get a filling.... booo- and generally just watched TV, napped, and baked for four fabulous days. Thanksgiving day was quite low key, just the immediate family, and too much food- it was SOOO good!
Friday, I headed to auburn for the Iron Bowl. First off, it took me 7 HOURS to get there- seven.... Auburn is SO far from Dyersburg. It is slighly ridiculous. When i got to Manhands's, J-vo and his friend spike were already there, and had been drinking for a few hours already. It was only 5:30ish- so I had some catching up to do. Needless to say- I caught up fairly quickly. We played drinking games at Amy's for a while, then headed to "the Castle" with Kim and Kyle and a few others, then went to Buffalo's downtown where we met up with Annie and Robert and Annie's fam, Blaire, Wes, J-Vo, Town, Bob, Culver, Sexton, Chelsea.... there are too many to name. After that we headed to Sexton's place, where people were playing beer pong, then Amy, Kim and I went to Jimmy John's to finish off the night, where amy proceeded to talk to every sketchy person in the place-- you think she would have learned by now, but apparently not.
Saturday was a day of tailgating... ALL DAY. No, seriously- all day. The game wasn't until 7, so it was an all day affair. The highlight of the whole day for me was that Tennessee won their game against Kentucky after 4 overtimes! It was awesome! Now TN gets to go to the SEC Championship this weekend, and the Cats lost (which was awesome for me since Culver is a UK fan... hehe). I did get to go the the Iron Bowl game, and my ticket was... the second to last row from the top- and it was cold. COLD at the game. But Auburn won, and it was awesome. at the end of the game, one of the football players started directing the band with the band director- it was hilarious. it was super fun! the rest of the night was fairly low key, with me sleeping for a good 30 minutes on amy's floor while about 8 other people watched highlights from the game and other's continued to pour in from the game. Overall- good nine days. now all i have to do is get through the next two weeks without a serious mental breakdown, and life will be good.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Insanity
I've had two different people, on two different days, quote the definition of insanity when I was just talking about life recently, and some of the not so good decisions I've been making. And the fact that I continue to be slightly crazy all the time, no matter what the outcome was last time I went into an episode. I think that they (and the world) is trying to tell me something.
Insanity: continuing to do the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
Insanity: continuing to do the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Jumping to Conclusions
Jumping to conclusions is something that all people do. no seriously- all people do it at least every once in a while. I hope they do, because I seem to do it more than my fair share. Lets just say I'm known for doing this with my really good friends. It is part of my personality, and something that I wish I had better control over, but sometimes it just comes out and bitch slaps me before I can even do anything about it. And at the time, I feel justified in what I am feeling/getting upset over, but in the end, I end up feeling slightly foolish, but still somewhat justified. Now the question is, how do I stop doing this so often, or at least waiting until I have all the information necessary to either jump to conclusions or not?
Honestly, I have no idea. So many factors go into why I do this (along with so many of my other character flaws). Should I start letting things from the past go quicker, or letting them go altogether? Probably. Should I try and get all the facts before I assume the worst, or at least the worst when I believe it is going to affect me? Totally. But the question still is how to do this. Again I don't know. I've done it again today, and completely upset a friend, and our relationship has just started to get back to a state of semi-normalcy. And while again, I still believe that I am justified slightly in my thinking, I handled the situation the wrong way. And I don't know how to fix it. Apparently I'm not over some of the things from the past, things I thought that I had moved past, but I guess not. So if anyone has any suggestions for me on how for me to at least act less crazy, I would greatly appreciate it. But really, we all know that's all it is... an act. But suggestions on how to hide my craziness better would be greatly appreciated :)
Honestly, I have no idea. So many factors go into why I do this (along with so many of my other character flaws). Should I start letting things from the past go quicker, or letting them go altogether? Probably. Should I try and get all the facts before I assume the worst, or at least the worst when I believe it is going to affect me? Totally. But the question still is how to do this. Again I don't know. I've done it again today, and completely upset a friend, and our relationship has just started to get back to a state of semi-normalcy. And while again, I still believe that I am justified slightly in my thinking, I handled the situation the wrong way. And I don't know how to fix it. Apparently I'm not over some of the things from the past, things I thought that I had moved past, but I guess not. So if anyone has any suggestions for me on how for me to at least act less crazy, I would greatly appreciate it. But really, we all know that's all it is... an act. But suggestions on how to hide my craziness better would be greatly appreciated :)
Monday, November 12, 2007
Stupid Ignorant people trying to push their beliefs on me
So, ya know those people that you've seen on your respective college campus, or on Beale Street in Memphis, that are holding the large signs about the end of the world and how we are all going to hell? you know what I'm talking about. These are people i find amusing. No seriously. I used to love to get out of class at UT and find them between the humanities building and the library, right by the street at the major intersection of campus for cars AND for students. I loved to sit there and listen to them, because it think that they are morons, but morons who totally believe in everything they are saying. and they don't care that no one is taking them seriously... they are telling me that I am going to go to hell because of.... (insert various reasons here). If nothing else, these people were a form of entertainment at least for the five minutes i had to spare before I had to race across campus and up The Hill for my next class, and I didn't think about anything school related for that period of time.
Today instead, I encountered one thing that I have absolutely no tolerance for. I walked into the courtyard at GSU (if you've ever been here you know what I'm talking about, because this is the closest thing that meets the definition of a "campus" at GSU) and there were signs that said "Warning: Genocide project ahead" or something of that nature, warning people about what they were getting ready to see. Well, since this was still in my path to the library, I continued on my intended path. And when i walked around the corner.... there were pictures of aborted fetuses, and fetus parts next to coins to show how small they are.... and they were everywhere. No don't get me wrong- everyone should be allowed to choice to make their own decisions about how they feel about abortion. I personally have no idea how I feel, because I've never been put in a situation where that has been a questions, but i do believe that my beliefs should not affect the next woman's right to have or not have an abortion. What i find offensive is that these people thought it was OK to post these pictures in a high traffic, public place. I do not want to see these images as I'm walking to class, because i can't help but see them in my side vision at the very least. And I don't understand how people believe that showing these images is going to get the kind of response that they are trying to elicit from the general public. All it does is make me angry. And the fact that these people believe that they can change the way people feel... but the one thing that did make me laugh was the girl holding up this sign in the middle of all of it :
"Don't place your beliefs in my vagina". It was awesome.
Today instead, I encountered one thing that I have absolutely no tolerance for. I walked into the courtyard at GSU (if you've ever been here you know what I'm talking about, because this is the closest thing that meets the definition of a "campus" at GSU) and there were signs that said "Warning: Genocide project ahead" or something of that nature, warning people about what they were getting ready to see. Well, since this was still in my path to the library, I continued on my intended path. And when i walked around the corner.... there were pictures of aborted fetuses, and fetus parts next to coins to show how small they are.... and they were everywhere. No don't get me wrong- everyone should be allowed to choice to make their own decisions about how they feel about abortion. I personally have no idea how I feel, because I've never been put in a situation where that has been a questions, but i do believe that my beliefs should not affect the next woman's right to have or not have an abortion. What i find offensive is that these people thought it was OK to post these pictures in a high traffic, public place. I do not want to see these images as I'm walking to class, because i can't help but see them in my side vision at the very least. And I don't understand how people believe that showing these images is going to get the kind of response that they are trying to elicit from the general public. All it does is make me angry. And the fact that these people believe that they can change the way people feel... but the one thing that did make me laugh was the girl holding up this sign in the middle of all of it :
"Don't place your beliefs in my vagina". It was awesome.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
What my name means... and how weird this is
So, I found this website today and thought "why not? I'm already procrastinating from finishing my school work anyway" and typed in my name. If you don't feel like reading all of it, here are the parts that I found weird.
In the first real section titled "The expression or destiny for #7:" it talks about how people that are the number 7 are curious about the world and knowledge seekers. that i would make a good teacher. this is weird, because that is exactly what I am doing. how does a website know this? seriously, you can find this info out about someone using their name, which coincides with a particular number, and that number can tell you this kind of info? weird.
The other part that was weird was the part talking about how I opperate on a different wavelength and don't trust people much. this thing totally freaked me out. Many of the things it said were very true for my personality. how does it do it?
From: http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp
You entered: Caroline Hope McClure
There are 19 letters in your name.Those 19 letters total to 97There are 8 vowels and 11 consonants in your name. What your first name means:
Scottish Female Feminine form of Charles: manly.
Italian FemaleStrong. An Italian feminine form of Charles. Famous bearer: 18th century Caroline of Ansbach was the German wife of English King George II. Lady Caroline Lamb had a famous liaison with poet Lord Byron.
French Female Song of happiness.
English Female Joy. Song of happiness. Also feminine variant of Charles: manly.
Your number is: 7
The characteristics of #7 are: Analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studious, meditating.
The expression or destiny for #7:Thought, analysis, introspection, and seclusiveness are all characteristics of the expression number 7. The hallmark of the number 7 is a good mind, and especially good at searching out and finding the truth. You are so very capable of analyzing, judging and discriminating, that very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You are the type of person that can really get involved in a search for wisdom or hidden truths, often becoming an authority on whatever it is your are focusing on. This can easily be of a technical or scientific nature, or it may be religious or occult, it matters very little, you pursue knowledge with the same sort of vigor. You can make a very fine teacher, or because of a natural inclination toward the spiritual, you may become deeply emerged in religious affairs or even psychic explorations. You tend to operate on a rather different wavelength, and many of your friends may not really know you very well. The positive aspects of the 7 expression are that you can be a true perfectionist in a very positive sense of the word. You are very logical, and usually employ a quite rational approach to most things you do. You can be so rational at times that you almost seem to lack emotion, and when you are faced with an emotional situation, you may have a bit of a problem coping with it. You have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals. At full maturity you are likely to be a very peaceful and poised individual.
If there is an over supply of the number 7 in your makeup, the negative aspects of the number may be apparent. The chief negative of 7 relates to the limited degree of trust that you may have in people. A tendency to be highly introverted can make you a bit on the self-centered side, certainly very much self-contained . Because of this, you are not very adaptable, and you may tend to be overly critical and intolerant. You really like to work alone, at your own pace and in your own way. You neither show or understand emotions very well.
Your Soul Urge number is: 4
A Soul Urge number of 4 means: With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.
The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don't be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.
Your Inner Dream number is: 3
An Inner Dream number of 3 means: You dream of artistic expression; writing, painting, music. You would seek to more freely express your inner feeling and obtain more enjoyment from life. You also dream of being more popular, likable, and appreciated.
In the first real section titled "The expression or destiny for #7:" it talks about how people that are the number 7 are curious about the world and knowledge seekers. that i would make a good teacher. this is weird, because that is exactly what I am doing. how does a website know this? seriously, you can find this info out about someone using their name, which coincides with a particular number, and that number can tell you this kind of info? weird.
The other part that was weird was the part talking about how I opperate on a different wavelength and don't trust people much. this thing totally freaked me out. Many of the things it said were very true for my personality. how does it do it?
From: http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp
You entered: Caroline Hope McClure
There are 19 letters in your name.Those 19 letters total to 97There are 8 vowels and 11 consonants in your name. What your first name means:
Scottish Female Feminine form of Charles: manly.
Italian FemaleStrong. An Italian feminine form of Charles. Famous bearer: 18th century Caroline of Ansbach was the German wife of English King George II. Lady Caroline Lamb had a famous liaison with poet Lord Byron.
French Female Song of happiness.
English Female Joy. Song of happiness. Also feminine variant of Charles: manly.
Your number is: 7
The characteristics of #7 are: Analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studious, meditating.
The expression or destiny for #7:Thought, analysis, introspection, and seclusiveness are all characteristics of the expression number 7. The hallmark of the number 7 is a good mind, and especially good at searching out and finding the truth. You are so very capable of analyzing, judging and discriminating, that very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You are the type of person that can really get involved in a search for wisdom or hidden truths, often becoming an authority on whatever it is your are focusing on. This can easily be of a technical or scientific nature, or it may be religious or occult, it matters very little, you pursue knowledge with the same sort of vigor. You can make a very fine teacher, or because of a natural inclination toward the spiritual, you may become deeply emerged in religious affairs or even psychic explorations. You tend to operate on a rather different wavelength, and many of your friends may not really know you very well. The positive aspects of the 7 expression are that you can be a true perfectionist in a very positive sense of the word. You are very logical, and usually employ a quite rational approach to most things you do. You can be so rational at times that you almost seem to lack emotion, and when you are faced with an emotional situation, you may have a bit of a problem coping with it. You have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals. At full maturity you are likely to be a very peaceful and poised individual.
If there is an over supply of the number 7 in your makeup, the negative aspects of the number may be apparent. The chief negative of 7 relates to the limited degree of trust that you may have in people. A tendency to be highly introverted can make you a bit on the self-centered side, certainly very much self-contained . Because of this, you are not very adaptable, and you may tend to be overly critical and intolerant. You really like to work alone, at your own pace and in your own way. You neither show or understand emotions very well.
Your Soul Urge number is: 4
A Soul Urge number of 4 means: With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.
The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don't be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.
Your Inner Dream number is: 3
An Inner Dream number of 3 means: You dream of artistic expression; writing, painting, music. You would seek to more freely express your inner feeling and obtain more enjoyment from life. You also dream of being more popular, likable, and appreciated.
Friday, November 02, 2007
A sad sad day...
So, halloween I realized that I have become a lightweight again when it comes to alcohol consumption... and that isn't necessarily a good thing. SO, I was cooking for myself and also having some beverages- Woodchucks hard cider to be exact. I know, many people do not believe that this technically is an adult beverage, but trust me it is. And sometimes, it is just nice to have something that genuinly tastes good. anyway- I was cooking and had 1 cider. then i ate dinner and I had another cider. and then thirty minutes later, I realized that I was tipsy. off of TWO ciders. The next couple of weekends could be a little rough.
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