"I Fly"-- interesting

I fly
I fly up, out of my body
Looking down I see this girl-
Average on the outside, nothing that jumps out and yells “Look at ME!”
She walks through life at a pace steady and true
Not quite knowing who she is
I see her sadness that she keeps deep inside
Under the mask that is her life
She wears a smile that the world believes is true
But deep down inside is a wall
Too high to climb and too thick to break through
The pain and hurt from the past are building higher, thicker walls
She is afraid of life, of the hurt and the pain
She is sure no one sees her
Underneath the mask is a girl
Who loves and smiles and knows happiness
Who lets others see her deep darkness
The girl afraid of the world, of allowing others to love her
Because no one ever has
No one loves her
For her pain and hurt
For her insecurities
For her wall
For her true self
No one understands how thick the mask is
The mask of outward happiness
It is believable, to everyone including the girl
But I can see it, flying overhead
And as the day ends, I float back into my body-
For I am the girl, and I must live the life I see from above, of lies and pretend

The End of 2007 and The Beginning of 2008

I can hardly believe that 2007 is over- it seriously feels like yesterday that I celebrated the end of 2006 and beginning of 2007 in Athens last year, and Kevin's birthday at the same time. Had a great time, and it was the perfect way to bring in 2007. Here are some of the highlights from 2007 for me:
1. I FINALLY made my first trip to Europe (first actually being the key word in that sentence). It was perfect and awesome, and better than anything I've ever done. I got to go with my favorite, saw Ellen, and went to Italy, France, and Spain. Lots of good time. Unfortunately it fueled my need to travel even more than usual.

2. I got into graduate school. I took the GRE, passed, and got into graduate school at Georgia State University in downtown Atlanta for Education. Now all I have to do if finish without having a serious anxiety attack from stressing out about all the little things in the program that drive me absolutely crazy!

3. I finally feel totally comfortable in Atlanta. It has only take two years, but I am finally comfortable in Atlanta. Not only in getting around and knowing how to get places, but in places and with the people that I hang out with as well. I have more friends than just my clique, and I actually see people around Atlanta pretty randomly (I saw Ellen today at Lenox Mall! It was Awesome!).

2008 definitely came in with a bang. I started my newest thing, which is my traveling Barbie. She made her first appearance at McCargo and Simpson's Luau New Year's eve party, and apparently her adventures that night were a big hit. She will now continue to have adventures in 2008, and be like where's waldo. More appearances to defiantly come!
Here are some of my expectations for 2008 (I don't like resolutions):

1. GET BACK IN SHAPE! this is defiantly my biggest goal. I stopped playing ultimate in July to rest my knees after five years of doing the exact opposite, and then in October I sprained my ankle pretty badly, and wore an air cast for 7 weeks. I am now determined to spend the next few months strengthening my knees and ankles and core, and getting back into ultimate shape.

2. Play MORE ultimate. I didn't play nearly as much as I would approve of last year, but I am going to fix that problem. Once I get healthy and in shape, I am going to play as much and as often as possible. I am also captaining a women's winter league team, and probably a spring league team. we'll see how that goes.

3. Finish Graduate school, get certified, get a job, and my own apartment... and hopefully a new car (this may be a 2009 goal). All of these things are completely connected and dependant on the one that come before. They need no explanation.

4. Travel more! I know- i already travel more than anyone else I know, or more than is entirely healthy for my bank account. I don't care. I love traveling, and it is time to start hitting the places on the list of places I haven't been yet- and there are a lot (and I'll probably keep going to my favs- Savannah, auburn, Nooga, Knoxville)

5. Spend more time with the people that mean the most to me. I know that I need to spend time with my family more... and I want to. I also need to spend more time with my friends that are important to me, and I need to learn to let them know that they are important to me. I also need to learn to let the things to don't effect my life anymore go. They, and the people involved, don't actually mean anything anymore, and I need to stop and let things that don't matter go, and tell the people that do matter exactly that.

I think that may be it... I know that there are more, but I can't think of anything else at the moment... I guess I'll have to live it to see how it works out!