My biggest fear

For many years, I've always said that my biggest fear was tearing my ACL, which is still a very real fear of mine, because I'm just not sure that I'm strong enough of that I love ultimate enough anymore to come all the way back (or my version of "all the way back") from something like that. 

But really, as I've come to realize over the last year or so, is that my biggest fear is that I'll return south, but specifically Atlanta, because I'll never find people here like I have there.  It seems dumb, but it is what it is.  I am so afraid that I'll never find the friends that I have there (I do love my roommates here- they're the closest thing I've got right now) in Wyoming, or out west at all.  And I realize that I live in Laramie, so there are lots and lots of people that are WAY younger than me, so that makes it hard, but I've always been able to make friends in a new place within 6 months.  This time, it took over a year, and it's just a few people.  Am I going to have to go back to Atlanta to be comfortable and have people that know me or to even find a guy that I find interesting enough and attractive enough?

That's the fear- that after all the time I spent wanting to live in the west, and all the time and effort I put into getting out here, that I'll fail in the social department and never be happy until I'm back South.  I mean, I want to end up there eventually, but not just yet.  I'm afraid that I'll get my version of a dream job back in TN or GA, and I'll say yes without even looking further.  Ugh....