Pay Attention!

PAY ATTENTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is the phrase that I have been yelling at myself inside my head for the last three weeks. I have a to take a middle grades math certification test this Saturday, and I can't make my attention span last more than about 45 minutes to an hour without getting utterly bored and either blogging, watching TV, or pulling out my "for fun" book that I've been reading. Why can't I make myself study for this test?

I mean, here is the deal: I currently hold two degrees one of which is a masters in social studies secondary education, a minor in history, and four certifications (6-12 History and Geography, MG Reading and MG Social Studies). And I can't get a job. Seriously? So I signed up to take the MG math test to be certified in that in the hopes that it will at least get me a job. Unfortunately the debt payments won't wait for me to find my dream job in my dream city teaching my dream subject. Apparently life doesn't work that way. So here I am taking a MG math test.

Problem: I am not a math person. Not to be understood that I am bad at math, because I'm not. I'm not amazing at it like Manhands and Blair, but I'm not terrible at it. I always did well in my math classes, mostly because it was just filling in formulas and finding an answer. I just don't particularly like math. That is all my hatred for math boils down to- I just plain don't like it. Even in college, I took the two easiest and lowest level math classes that I could get credit for. And even then, I made a perfect grade on the hardest test we had (it was five questions, and to solve each you had to use a sheet and a half of paper).

The thing is that this math certification should get me a job. The key word in that sentence being should. Will it for sure get me a job that will allow me to live on my own, pay my bills, and hopefully one day replace my POS Saturn? That is the true question. But it is at least supposed to up my chances.

So I guess I'll just keep telling myself PAY ATTENTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!